Coming Out of The Fog

needle through the fog
Originally uploaded by Chris Blakeley

The other day I had this feeling of a fog lifting off my body. I was in this strange place for the past 2 months since Robbie died & I didn't know it. As I've been coming out of the fog I look back on myself and the person I see is someone I didn't know these past 2 months. It's strange to be able to look back on yourself & your actions & say "Who was that person?" I am at a place where it seems as though several things a day make me cry because I'm sad for what we lost. Every picture will be missing something, every memory will be forever changed by our loss. I am not the same person I was at 6:29 AM March 18th, 2010 before I found Robbie passed away. I am forever changed. I truly realize coming out of this fog that life is a precious gift & to not be afraid to live.