Happy Birthday Kayla!

So tomorrow my beautiful baby girl will be 12. Where has the time gone. She's going to have lots of celebrating. Last Thursday night we celebrated with my boyfriend at his house. We went out to dinner and had birthday cake. Today my parents came up and gave Kayla her presents and my Dad suprised her with a cake. Tomorrow we will go out to dinner with Robbie's parents. Gotta love it. She's am amazing young woman. Robbie would be proud of her.

Change

Wow so it's been a while since I've posted anything & a lot has changed. First off I can't believe that it's been 7 months since Robbie died. So much has changed since then & life is moving at light speed it seems. One big change is that I have a boyfriend. I've known him for 20 years and it's so nice to know that I can love after having my heart ripped out 7 months ago.

My birthday is on Tuesday so Grant, Cameron & I went to the coast for a few days. Kayla just wasn't able to do it as it would remind her too much of Robbie. We had a couple of beautiful days and a whole lot of fun. Cameron got to fly a kite, we went to the aquarium & got to see the sharks being fed and on our way home stopped at the outlet and picked up a few things. It was a blast. It was so nice to see a smile on Cameron's face.

I don't know what the future is going to bring but I know it's going to be interesting.

Acceptance?

So for the past 5 months I've been sitting around my house waiting for someone to come through the door that wasn't going to come through the door anymore. I was waiting for someone to show up & do all of those things around my house that he always did. The other day my friend came over & helped me paint my room. I woke up the next morning in my freshly painted room with new bedding & had this overwhelming feeling that things were going to be okay & that I could do it. Since then I've been doing all sorts of things that Robbie used to do & have been decluttering the house. It's been so empowering. I've come to a point where I guess I've accepted that this is my life & I have to do these things now. Is it tiring? Yes but I'm proud of myself & am looking forward to finding out who I am.

Becoming Independent

So for so many years now I have had Robbie around to do all of those things that we wife's deem "man's work". I've sat around this house for the past 5 months waiting for someone to come along and do these things for me & for awhile after he died I did have wonderful people that helped me & I appreciate it so much. On Wednesday a friend came & helped me paint my bedroom. The next morning I woke up feeling a whole lot better & I've done several things since that Robbie would have normally done for me. Are they easy for me to do. Not necessarily because I've got to figure stuff out but I have and I feel so proud of myself for it.

Beautiful Day on the Oregon Coast

So I spent the weekend with a special friend this past weekend to help them celebrate their birthday. We've been having a heatwave here in Oregon the past few days. We went to the Astoria & Seaside on Friday. There was a beach volleyball tournament in Seaside. It was pretty cool. There were at least 90+ courts. It was also over 86 degrees on the coast. That never happens. It was such a beautiful day.

Garlic Festival

So I didn't take any pictures yesterday but we had an amazing day. We went to the garlic festival in North Plains, Oregon. It was a lot of fun. We ate some yummy food, the kids got to play & we just relaxed and enjoyed some of the music. It is so nice to see my kids with "true" smiles on their faces again. While they aren't there all of the time it's certainly nice to see them when they are there. We are enjoying the next few weeks of summer before school starts. This year is going to be different, difficult & full of adventure. We are so thankful to everyone who has prayed for us & continues to do so & who has stood by us. We are blessed to have you in our lives.

Oregon Jamboree 2010

Well, last weekend was the Oregon Jamboree here in Sweet Home. Kayla & I had a lot of fun. Thanks to cousin Shari we got to meet Keith Urban. That was awesome. Kayla was so happy. We got to listen to some great music & the weekend ended with one of our favorites Miranda Lambert. She's absolutely beautiful & amazingly talented. It was great to see some smiles on Kayla's face